barely hav ani strength. rather nt speak saves my strength even speaking can tke my strength t stay awake away fatigue whole day' nt normal fatigue but its those kind of making u wan t slp de whole day]
Very nauseous. since 3 days ago i think. idk why at all. i jus kno tad it's killing me. seriously. it is killing me. i'd rather die than suffer. feeling such bad nauseous will jus make me feel like dying den feeling terribly nauseuos.
A fren told me tad i've to really pull thru the exam. she completely knows the feeling of hell jus by studying. crying everyday. not oni once, but more than tad. its exactly wads happening now. but slightly different. cos its not jus pure studying tads making me s demoralized ttm, there are other stuff oso. and im desperately trying to handle n juggle everything together. its like juggling tennis balls. i've t try bloody hard not to give up learning how t juggle. its just very hard now for me. and i know tad i cant completely give up. i've to at least study sth. At Least ok. im horribly slow in studies now while many ppl have almost all the info required in their heads. honestly, i do feel very stressed when i see ppl very hardworking. i jus cant memorise wad is needed.d jus s freaking hard for the words t enter my brain cos it's recovering from an active attack.
But at the end of the day, tad fren said i know tad i must pull thru. i will pull thru, i can pull thru, i must pull thru. just try ok steph. just at least study some. jus try. despite the horrible nauseous-ness, u have t try ok. add oil missy. jus try. pls jus try.
i wonder, why am i so restless? everything related to sch makes me feel this way, why oh why. i can basically feel gloomy the whole day. i try to laugh, but at the end of the day, gloomy is written on my face. even when i slp i feel gloomy. wdv i do, im gloomy. its not tad i want to feel gloomy. but there's nth to feel excited abt in life.
Besides, wads the point of feeling excited when it may turn out t be a disappointment instead. and at the end of the day, gloomy comes home. i kno i kno, this type of tinking is being super pessimistic. but i cannot help it. its liddat now.
Hello im in the TP library now. am waiting for some to end their pst. zzz...
finally MP judging is over. but as term test approaches, there comes the sstress again. =(
Everyone's gonna start studying next wk, gg to lib everyday to study till it closes etc. So hardworking loh. unlike me. i wish i was motivated n hardworking n smart at the same time.
yay, there's no sch on fri! public hol ma. can slp more...
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